Day 2 - Ups and Downs

Yesterday, after posting, I decided to get a haircut. It was a nice change and it felt good to pamper myself a little. I got some layers and now I can wear my hair down a little more often. It definitely lifted my spirits. Although I've felt fairly hopeless the last couple of months, I'm starting to see a glimmer of hope.

I've made plans to go to the gym and start back on Weight Watchers tomorrow and I really have faith I can do it for the long haul this time. I won't say that I'm not scared (and intimidated by the fact that I need to find better coping mechanisms), but I remember how good I felt when I was getting in shape and it pushes me forward. In August I'm going back to visit family and friends out of state and I am determined to go back looking better than I did when I left. My goal for the trip is 180 lbs, which is my halfway point. It's ambitious, but 40 lbs (give or take) in three months is attainable if I really put my mind to it. It's going to take some real effort and focus, but I believe I can do it, one day at a time.

New Hair!!!

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Day 4 - Temptation

After a stressful day, it's hard not to crave snacks and sweets. I found myself wanting just that as I strolled through Target earlier. I waited too long to eat and got way too hungry. It almost backfired, but I held it together and got some pretty makeup instead. I wasn't able to make it to the gym, but I did stick to my Weight Watchers and that's my primary goal. The first week is always the hardest! Making my dreams come true! =)

Reboot

Okay, so I fell off the proverbial wagon. I didn't gain tons of weight, but I certainly didn't lose much in the last few months. I've been back on Weight Watchers for three days (and just got back to the gym today) and I have lost 3 lbs. Not too shabby. I am at 215, with an ultimate goal of 140 - 75 lbs to go. It seems pretty far off, but I have lot's of goals and feel like I can push past this setback and be successful. Every day I am going to try to remember that this isn't just about me, it's about being alive to see my baby girl grow up and have her own babies. It's about growing old with my hubby. It's about feeling good in my own skin. I know that losing weight isn't the way to learn self-love (I'd need a whole new blog for that journey), but making healthy choices and taking control of my life will definitely be a self-esteem booster. Wish me luck...! P.S. Here's a goofy pic of me preparing to kick it up a notch... =P

Day 6 - Ugh...

As usual, the day has been filled with ups and downs. My teeth and tongue still hurt and eating is really difficult. I didn't count my Weight Watchers points, as I'm just happy to eat what I can. If this isn't better tomorrow, I'll have to talk to the dentist. I can't deal with another day off track, it's discouraging. I'm hoping to get back to the gym tomorrow or Saturday. The bright side to my day is that I got to spend time with family, my hubby and daughter in the morning and my Momma in the evening. My husband and I hung out with our cutie and ate homemade french onion soup. My Mom and I watched Hart of Dixie and watched my little one practice walking. It's been a fulfilling day in many ways and I feel very blessed to have such wonderful people in my life. Throwback Thursday =)

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